3/16/19

The hole swallows me whole.  Consumes me, total. I am only a hole.  Insatiable.  Unable to be filled.  Unfathomable.  Hollow. In my space and time I seek.  I told myself I was whole. I thought I loved myself.  I lost myself in the hole.  I walked down into it and then it was covered over.Continue reading “3/16/19”

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Call of the Wild

Oh, the distance I have come. Oh, the distance I will go. Continually on the path towards growth. For the past 30 years that growth was imperceptibly slow. Normal rates of maturation that come with age. Once I hit that last exact there was an altered speed beyond my comprehension. Time sped up. Mind slowedContinue reading “Call of the Wild”

This Too Shall Pass

It is Wednesday, January 24th. This past week has been exhausting.  I started my new job at The Chocolatree Restaurant.  I worked Friday through Monday.  I’m working today as well.  I’ve noticed how much my desire to be perfect and to be liked is present in a work environment.  On top of learning how toContinue reading “This Too Shall Pass”

Desert Sunrise

Night gives way to an orange line glowing bright. Outside my window, under the velvet mesquite, a fire burns in the sky. A life without bounds gives way to the day. Where dreams are still real but take longer to stay. Red and orange turn to purple and blue. The time between sleep and movementContinue reading “Desert Sunrise”

3.30.15

The sun shines through the window in the corner of my eye. I blink and awake from a stupor of past and future meaninglessness. I am in and out, in and out. Present, future, present, past, future, present, past. A wind blows by and stirs up the warm smell of pine: present. A thought sailsContinue reading “3.30.15”