The hole swallows me whole. Consumes me, total. I am only a hole. Insatiable. Unable to be filled. Unfathomable. Hollow. In my space and time I seek. I told myself I was whole. I thought I loved myself. I lost myself in the hole. I walked down into it and then it was covered over.Continue reading “3/16/19”
Category Archives: Mindfulness
Can I Cut It?
I’ve been actually traveling around in a van for the last two weeks. I say ‘actually traveling’ because I’ve mostly been stationary since I moved into my car in January of 2018. Yes, I have moved to different places over the last 8 months, but once I arrived, I stayed there for at least aContinue reading “Can I Cut It?”
Call of the Wild
Oh, the distance I have come. Oh, the distance I will go. Continually on the path towards growth. For the past 30 years that growth was imperceptibly slow. Normal rates of maturation that come with age. Once I hit that last exact there was an altered speed beyond my comprehension. Time sped up. Mind slowedContinue reading “Call of the Wild”
Precious Pause
Sometimes, when the conditions are right, and I just sit and notice, my heart breaks wide open at the extraordinary sights. At how incredibly alive this world is; how potent.
This Too Shall Pass
It is Wednesday, January 24th. This past week has been exhausting. I started my new job at The Chocolatree Restaurant. I worked Friday through Monday. I’m working today as well. I’ve noticed how much my desire to be perfect and to be liked is present in a work environment. On top of learning how toContinue reading “This Too Shall Pass”
Road Trip
“If you can’t fly then run. If you can’t run then walk. If you can’t walk then crawl, but whatever you do you have to keep moving forward.” -Martin Luther King Jr. Today is Wednesday, January 18th. I slept at a campground last night in Oak Creek Canyon just outside of Sedona. I just gotContinue reading “Road Trip”
Desert Sunrise
Night gives way to an orange line glowing bright. Outside my window, under the velvet mesquite, a fire burns in the sky. A life without bounds gives way to the day. Where dreams are still real but take longer to stay. Red and orange turn to purple and blue. The time between sleep and movementContinue reading “Desert Sunrise”
Friends
Today I am celebrating life by sitting on a couch and appreciating it. I am enjoying being in a space all day without giving it a second thought. I am reveling in really clean hair and freshly laundered clothing. This weekend I studied a lot of astrology. I frequented Starbucks for free WiFi and IContinue reading “Friends”
Benton Ave.
Street side musings in Flagstaff.
3.30.15
The sun shines through the window in the corner of my eye. I blink and awake from a stupor of past and future meaninglessness. I am in and out, in and out. Present, future, present, past, future, present, past. A wind blows by and stirs up the warm smell of pine: present. A thought sailsContinue reading “3.30.15”
Real Deep Shit 